After you gasp, on to the answer
I'm really struggling to understand what it is you want.
If you are seeking encouragement, I tried to offer that along with my suggestion to get a shave ready razor to compare/contrast.
If you are seeking advice that comes from (collectively many decades worth of) wisdom, I think that was shared also.
As for attacks. I felt like you did a fair share of lashing out, but tone is not always easily conveyed...so take it for what it's worth.
Regardless, nothing I have offered was intended as discouragement or an attack. I can assure you that if I made a habit of attacking new users, I would not have lasted here very long....and I darn sure would not have learned as much as I have.
I wish you well, and sincerely hope you don't get discouraged with straight razors as a result of your efforts. Razors are something that I and many others here enjoy. The depth of this enjoyment is probably reflected in our depth of passion for helping beginners to realize success in this endeavor (and to help them avoid problems).
There I go again assuming something about you (that you are a beginner). I'll tell you why I assume this. I think most veteran honers understand that powered mechanical sharpeners for very thin, very hard steel can lead to poor and potentially dangerous results.