Don't feel bad about the hesitation. When I first put a blade to my throat, I had the definite feeling that Bela Lugosi was standing behind me, waiting to jumt at that first drop. It made it all the worse to know I couldn't see hm in my mirror! (The crucifix helped.) But I've very rarely in the three months since I started, gotten more than a minor nick. It's hard to fault anyone for being cautious.