I was thinking about where I work just now (in a prison as an Education Coordinator) and a quote I read, from a prison newspaper from San Quentin which said (along the lines of) ‘Working in a prison is working where paranoia is treated as normal and basic trust as unwise’.

I was thinking, after 15 years of doing this, if my basic instincts have been sullied and I've become distrustful of all. I was wondering if, and if so how much, outside influences influence the sort of people we are.

I used to be in the army, and for two years was a Recruit Instructor. I remember that for that time I was a bit of a psycho; and ended up not distinguishing between work and home; I used to give my kids (3 and six) room inspections; having them stand by the end of their beds while I ensured teddy was sitting up straight and barbie was suitably attired…

I think I’m being shaped by my jobs; and I’m not sure I like it. I should have taken my brother’s advice (when I was 16) and become a professional surfer. Forget the fact I had trouble standing up on the board (due to poor eyesight) it’s probably still a more favorable option…

Just wondering…