No shave today. mainly because I'm utterly, utterly depressed. Bailey, my grandson, had been complaining of a sore leg for a few weeks, and we were worried that the cancer (Ewing's sarcoma) had come back in a different limb. That bought back that horrible black feeling of worry that makes me feel physically nauseous. After X-rays yesterday we have the all clear at this stage; pending a radiographer report on Wednesday, however that horrible feeling hasn't fully left me yet. I seem to be back to getting no enjoyment out of anything at all and hating everyone and everything. I don't think i coludl go throug it all again, i really don't.. So i may be away for a while until i feel a bit cheerier..