At the risk of sounding contrary, and I mean no offense, I think 4 years is enough practice. I think you need an intervention.

+1 on the well honed razor. If your interested we can set up a time in the forum chat site and I can explain the entire process step by step, from honing to stropping to shaving in clear (moron proof) verbage.

Or if you prefer I'll send you my cell phone number.

Its an offer for you to consider and its open anytime.

And thanx for your service.