Thread: I'm in treatment and doing well

Good luck, like jimmyhad says "everyone is fighting a hard battle". You have taken yours to a new level. Its never easy. If you want it bad enough you will win. We are all in your corner. Best of luck.

I'm at an age where I can look way back. When I do I see a rolling wave of addiction where one variety was replaced by another. Clearly some are less destructive than others, and getting off toxic substances is generally a good thing. I do, however, end up at the same point, with a question, when I examine a life of addiction: what exactly were you trying to do, what were you running from or where were you running to (of course I've stopped running and now gimp along)? I believe the addict is inherently unhappy. Our lives feel a little like we are in a movie where the sound is ever so slightly out of sync with the players. So the question remains, does an addict ever fix or remodel the source of addiction?
I've never entered a program. Big Bill was in 'the program' for decades, gave public talks, went into prisons, was a sponsor etc. Yet he died alone, found days later on the floor of his garage. He returned to alcohol and found a way to become addicted to opium that he got for some health issue (sounds weird, I know).
To the OP, I don't think this is supposed to be easy.
Good Luck