Thread: Venting :(

I just need to vent lol! As most of you know after my long shoulder recovery I just ruptured my pec muscle and although my tendon seems in tact the muscle seems to be growing back pretty badly deformed. I am told there really isnt much of a surgery available as my surgeon who is the head of University of Pennsylvania's shoulder reconstruction department said that sewing two pieces of muscle together is like trying to sew two pieces of shit together, it just doesnt work. While my chest may heal it most certainly wont look right, which I can live with, but it also seems as though my sport and weightlifting career as well as my odd jobs that require physical strength may have come to an abrupt end. I have a follow up appointment on Friday, so I have a few breaths of hope left, but they are fading fast. I think I can go back to my day job soon, unless I need surgery AGAIN, in which case my surgeon said he would give me a frequent buyer card and my life will suck for about 6 - 12 months lol.

I am trying to remain in high spirits, but its pretty hard. Anyway you all know that I dont mope around looking for pitty and attention (or at least I hope you do), but I just needed to get it off my chest as my wife and friends keep saying "well you are getting older and you push yourself to hard"...but that is what I do, always has been and until Im dead I assume it always will be.

On the bright side, my chest and arm are no longer black and purple from the blood drainage, I am off all of the pain killers and I can move my arm enough shave again, and my wife has been shaving and bathing me in the meantime (which has been pretty enjoyable). I am 28, it is really depressing when Doctors and family tell me I am getting old, I feel like I have just really started life....ohwell...what do I know.