My 2cents,
Kevint, it seems to me that reading your posts, especially one, that you doubt or are undecided about your christianity.
The only thing you need to know of your salvation is to know how you feel about Jesus Christ. Is he who he says he is, the Son of God, God Incarnate, that he died for your sin and rose from the dead. If one believes this and repents he has eternal salvation.
Romans 10:9,10 "...If you confess with your mouth Jesus as Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised Jesus from the dead, you shall be saved; for with the heart man believes, resulting in righteousness, and with the mouth he confesses, resulting in salvation."
Also i get a sense of needing to do something or do good to be a christian. There is nothing we can do of ourselves to earn salvation.
Amplified Bible (AMP)
<SUP id=en-NIV-en-AMP-29236 class=versenum>8</SUP>For it is by free grace (God's unmerited favor) that you are saved (<SUP class=footnote value='[a]'>[a]</SUP>delivered from judgment and made partakers of Christ's salvation) through [your] faith. And this [salvation] is not of yourselves [of your own doing, it came not through your own striving], but it is the gift of God;
<SUP id=en-NIV-en-AMP-29237 class=versenum>9</SUP>Not because of works [not the fulfillment of the Law's demands], lest any man should boast. [It is not the result of what anyone can possibly do, so no one can pride himself in it or take glory to himself.]
We will not reach perfection until we are in his presence.
If i misunderstood any of the posts i apoligise and please ignore these comments if they a not relevant