Something came over me yesterday. I was talking to an old friend who had told me he quit smoking. He was a 3 pack a day smoker. He has been smoke free now for 3 months. During our conversation I just said "Yeah I am giving up the Cope on the 1st".

I didnt even know where it came from, it just came out. My wife and daughter looked at me and i finished my conversation. That was it, nothing else was said by me or my wife about it. I am a 2 can of Cope a day guy. I have been using since I was in high school, so thats almost 25 years.

Today I made lunch for my son and daughter and she looked at me and said "daddy are giving up that yukky stuff"?

I looked at her, at my wife and said "yep" again not even giving it a thought. I have never wanted to give it up until yesterday. I always had anxiety about it but it seems that the anxiety is gone and I want to give it up.

So I went online and placed an order for some mint and herb snuff (a lot cheaper than Cope) kind of made a outline of what I will do and how I will try to get through the first few days. I need to get a week under my belt.

Sitting here now really thinking about my task at hand I am starting to get a bit nervous. Not so much about falling off the wagon but is it too late? Have I created something in my mouth or throat that will show it nasty head just when I think I have beat this? I dont know if this is normal or not but I guess it will give me that much more energy to fight the addiction.

I know there are many of you who smoke or dip or both who have given it up so your words of wisdom are welcome.It seems not long ago I added to a thread about wanting to give up nicotine by. My 2 cents at the time were you need to want to do it or it wont work. I hope I can put that advice to use myself.

So I think once my herb/mint snuff is at the door thats the day I will jump in both feet. It should be at the end of the week.

Thanks so much for taking the time to read this