gentlemen and ladies of srp.

not really sure why i'm posting this.. i just needed to say something.. or i feel i may self destruct..

i had been working as a nanny of 5 for the last 2 years.. slowly over the course of those 2 years i stopped receiving pay and was basically just waiting for the parents to get paid so they could pay me.. (they work in the film industry)

then i somehow ended up having to be a full time single parent to the children while their parents we're always working.. so much to the point that i ended up living with the children and their grandmother while their mom stayed at her friend's house.. often going weeks on end without seeing their mom.

i'm not sure how this ended up happening.. but eventually the children's mother began to treat me like i was one of her children.. she spoke down to me and basically treated me with an enormous amount of disrespect.. i just became her person to release anger on..

this morning was the final straw.. after being verbally assaulted by the kid's mom.. i told her i was leaving.. i packed up everything i could and left..i hopped on the closest bus and started making phone calls to whoever i could to figure out what to do.. i had enough money to pay a weeks rent at a hostel.. and i now have 10 bucks to my name.. i plan on selling some dvds tomorrow to help me get through the rest of the week.. and i'm answered just about every ad on craigslist under the gigs section.. everything from moving help to data entry.. i'm sure i'll be fine.. and i feel a bit of relief now..

but i have this crazy feeling i just can't shake.. leaving the children was so hard.. i wasn't even able to say goodbye.. i just looked towards them and started crying uncontrollably. i ended up just walking out the door without saying a word to them.. i was just choking on my tears. advice anyone?

also.. does anyone in or around los angeles have any job leads for me?