Thread: Our friend Steve

Not sure I would want to wipe me Harris with a wet wipe to be honest.

Originally Posted by CrescentCityRazors

Wow this is heavy. I haven't been checking the boards much lately so I am just now reading this thread. I am really glad you are seeing some light at the end of the tunnel and it does sound like some degree of recovery is very probable. Any progress she makes is probably because she doesn't want to leave you all alone. Right now you are the light that is holding her here. So do take care of yourself, Steve. You MUST budget some sleep time and use it for sleeping. You need to eat, too. Even a protein bar and a coffee is better than nothing, It will restore and energize you. What good are you to her if you nod off on the drive to the hospital and run off the road, or worse? Take care of yourself Steve, because she needs you as much as she needs all those doctors and nurses and stuff. She is counting on you so keep yourself together. Don't run yourself into the ground. Sorry if I am preaching too much.

Your not lecturing and you make a lot of sense but Its not a question of making time to sleep, its just not happening and I have always got an ear open for the phone from the hospital.

As far as eating, Joan has some boost meal replacement drinks, there pretty nasty but they wont keep so I have one of those sometimes and try to eat as often as i can, I had cereal last night and beans on toast the night before. I don't bother with lunch because I'm always in the car or cleaning, the house has to be perfect for when she comes home and its taking a while because I'm a lazy slob and I'm too tired so i sit an look out of the window a lot waiting to make the next person to let their dog crap on my lawn cry.

Just got Back.

Joan opened eyes once when the nurse push something into her lung and pull it out to make her cough, she didn't' like that her eyes moved around like she was actually looking and i think she looked at me but this time I'm not sure.
Her head CT was the same as last time, no improvement but not worse so that's something to be thankful for.

She is still asleep for 99% of the time and shes at the very least paralyzed down her right side, but you know what, if that's the worst of it and her mind comes back to me, I will sell this place, get a bungalow or Condo and push her in her wheelchair everyday so she can breathe the air and hear the birds, I'll pack us up a picnic and push her to the lake for a couple of hours, so she can watch the water while i read some Ken Follet to her, she likes him.

Just got back.

Joan has had her ventilator turned back up to full.
The doctors want me in late tomorrow at 1pm because they want a meeting and to udate me
I haven't smoked for 20 years, until the pack i got today, there doesn't seem much point in being good.

I heard a county song today, pressure makes diamond, whoever wrote that shit has never had any.

I can't talk now. Im losing her, shes slip christ

Prayers for you buddy

look what i got, im ashamed of myself but what the hell, I dont have much else right now.

I just got back.

Joan had her eyes open for an hour, she heard me, she took my hand.
she responded and wiggled her fingers when the nurse asked her too.
she is paralyzed on her right side, she probably wont be able talk and her eyes only go from the center to the left because of the right side paralysis.

It was the best day I can remember I'm so happy, I knew she was going to come back to me.

The said she's not out of the woods yet, she is still on dialysis, her heart is really bad, her ventilator is back on full because she has pneumonia and she will always get it a lot.
I don't mind taking care of all her problems at home eventually as long as she can look at me and see the TV.

I will do everything she needs and if she can only make noises i will learn her new language.

I'm so happy, I'm sending my pipe back.

Just got back.

I didn't get too long with Joan today because they were setting up her dialysis and I had to stay in the waiting room because its all masks and gloves.

She was out today but she held my hand when i spoke to and when the nurse opened her eyes she followed her finger mostly so I'm still happy.

I have been preoccupied and upset so i haven't thought to thank them for the care they're giving Joan but I will be in on Christmas Day as every day so i have decided to get a couple of tins of Quality Street and a tin off cookies to leave with a note expressing my appreciation.

I hope that will make up for it and show them I am grateful.

Originally Posted by STF

look what i got, im ashamed of myself but what the hell, I dont have much else right now.

Don't be ashamed mate, you can't look after Joan if you can't look after yourself. If that means buying a pipe and having a bowl then that's what you've got to do

Originally Posted by STF

look what i got, im ashamed of myself but what the hell, I dont have much else right now.

Well, I think a pipe is a great way to make yourself sit back and think, in a relaxed but rational manner, especially about how good the positive things are and how to best face and mitigate the negative things. Cigars are for pure selfish enjoyment. A pipe, on the other hand, is for meditating. And maybe your wife enjoys the smell of a pipe? A daily pipe might be just the thing for you. Or maybe not. But certainly nothing shameful or frivolous. Once we reach a certain age, it is a pretty safe bet that we will die from something else long before smoking a pipe will kill us, particularly if we don't deliberately inhale.